Half Shy

How (in the HELL) am I going to run 14 miles tomorrow?

It is what is on my training agenda for the half marathon in February, but I am slightly terrified. Even at the slowest wog, 10 miles still just sucks the life out of me, puts an ache throbbing through my muscles and joints.

How am I going to add 4 miles to that? How am I going to jog on for nearly 3 hours?

Simply put, it’s intimidating. It is the goal; it is what I have been working toward these past couple years. It’s what gets me to running with Carmen in New Orleans on Super Bowl Sunday. Slow as shit or not, it will be a fucking half marathon.

I know what I’m going to do tomorrow. I’m going to wog pathetically slow mile after mile. I’m going to keep pushing when my muscles burn and my breath tries to betray me. I’m going to tell myself I can keep going even when I just want to fall over and die.

Like Cripple Creek, I’m just nervous. Like Cripple Creek, it’s another big step and a new challenge. Feeling the idea begin to breach the present just has a little pressure sitting on my chest. I need to do it, put it behind me, and shift it from goal to accomplishment.


About ChrstnaBergling

Colorado-bred writer, Christina Bergling knew she wanted to be an author in fourth grade. In college, she pursued a professional writing degree and started publishing small scale. It all began with “How to Kill Yourself Slowly.” With the realities of paying bills, she started working as a technical writer and document manager, traveling to Iraq as a contractor and eventually becoming a trainer and solutions architect. She avidly hosted multiple blogs on Iraq, bipolar disorder, pregnancy, running. She continues to write on Fiery Pen: The Horror Writing of Christina Bergling and Z0mbie Turtle. The horror genre has always been a part of Bergling’s life. She has loved horror books ever since early readings of Goosebumps then Stephen King. She fell in love with horror movies young with Scream. Limitless Publishing released her novel The Rest Will Come. HellBound Books Publishing published her two novellas Savages and The Waning. She is also featured in over ten horror anthologies, including Collected Christmas Horror Shorts, Graveyard Girls, Carnival of Nightmares, and Demonic Wildlife. Bergling is a mother of two young children and lives with her family in Colorado Springs. She spends her non-writing time running, doing yoga and barre, belly dancing, taking pictures, traveling, and sucking all the marrow out of life. View all posts by ChrstnaBergling

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